The Chaos Within: Finding Peace Among the Many Voices Within You

Hi,

Let’s dive in.

As you walk the path of growth and self-discovery, there’s a moment when you realize something that feels almost absurd: you’re not just one person inside. 

No, you don’t have split personality disorder.

But sort of.

I mean think about it - You’ve got different aspects of yourself, sometimes so distinct it feels like you’re a whole committee in there. 

One moment, you’re full of energy, ready to take on the world. Next, you just want to curl up in a quiet corner. 

You long for freedom, but you also crave security. You want to nurture others, but you don’t want to be tied down. It’s a whirlwind, a constant tug-of-war, and if you’re not careful, it can drive you to exhaustion.

So, what do we usually do? 

We try to balance it all.

We seek out the perfect job that lets us travel yet provides stability…

The ideal partner who gives us freedom but also a sense of home. 

We try to juggle our desires, hoping we can somehow appease all these different parts of ourselves without going completely nuts. 

But here’s the thing: it never really works, does it? 

No matter how hard you try, there’s always that one part of you that feels neglected, that one voice that wasn’t heard. 

And so, you live inside this tornado, always spinning, always struggling to find some sense of peace. Sound familiar?

Well - What if, instead of trying to make all these parts of yourself happy, you asked a different question? 

What if you stopped focusing on how to balance these conflicting desires and instead asked, “Why are they there in the first place?” 

Why is it that sometimes you feel like you want one thing, and other times you want the complete opposite? 

Why do you have these different parts of yourself, all vying for your attention?

The truth is, most people don’t ever stop to ask this question. They just accept that it’s part of life—part of being human. But if you want real peace, real growth, you need to dig deeper. You need to understand why you’re this way, not just accept it. Think about it: when we started to understand the science of gravity, we didn’t just say, “Well, that’s how it is.” We studied it. We learned to work with it, to build planes and rockets that could defy it. The same principle applies to your inner world. You don’t have to just accept that you’re a mess of conflicting desires. You can understand why it’s like that—and when you do, you can start to change it.

Most people think spirituality is about finding peace by choosing one path over another. But the real teaching—the deep teaching—isn’t about choosing. It’s about understanding. It’s about realizing that the chaos inside you isn’t random. It’s not just something to be managed. It’s something that can be transformed.

Let’s start with something simple: What if there weren’t all these different parts of you? What if you were just one unified being, clear in your purpose, unwavering in your direction? 

Imagine waking up every day with that kind of clarity. 

Whoa…

No confusion, no inner conflict—just a steady, peaceful sense of knowing who you are and what you want. 

Sounds nice eh?

That’s what it means to be whole, to be centered. 

And here’s the secret: that’s your natural state. 

That’s how you’re meant to be.

And that’s what all these letters are about.

But why aren’t you there yet? Why do you have these different parts of yourself, pulling you in different directions? It’s because, over the course of your life, you’ve had experiences—some good, some bad—and you didn’t let them pass through you. 

Instead, you held onto them. 

You clung to them for dear life, didn’t ya?

You kept them inside. 

In yoga, these impressions we keep inside are called samskaras.

They’re like little knots of energy, memories, emotions, that you didn’t fully process, and so they got stuck. 

And every time you stored one of these impressions, it became the seed of a new part of your being.

Maybe someone didn’t say hello when you expected them to, and that hurt. 

You didn’t let it go, so now there’s a part of you that feels sensitive about being ignored. Maybe you had a wonderful experience in a place that you loved, and now there’s a part of you that’s always longing to go back there. 

Over time, all these little parts of yourself develop, each with its own agenda, its own needs, its own fears. 

And the more you accumulate, the more fragmented you become.

So now, here you are, trying to live your life, but you’re not just one person. You’re many. 

And each of these parts of you is pulling you in a different direction, causing all kinds of conflict and confusion. And you think the answer is to figure out which part of you to listen to, which desire to follow. But that’s not the answer. 

The answer is to go back to the source. It’s to stop asking, “What do I do about this?” and start asking, “Why is this happening in the first place?”

The real question isn’t, “What should I do about being sad or lonely?” The real question is, “Why am I sad or lonely to begin with?” And if you think the answer is, “Because I don’t have someone,” then you’re missing the point entirely. 

That’s like saying, “I’m sick because I don’t have medicine.” No, you’re sick because something in your body is out of balance. 

The medicine might help temporarily, but it doesn’t solve the underlying problem.

The reason you have all these different parts of yourself is because you’ve been holding onto things that should have been let go of long ago. Every time you didn’t let an experience pass through you—whether it was a good one or a bad one—you created another fragment of yourself. And now, you’re living with all these fragments, trying to make sense of them, trying to balance them, trying to keep them all happy. But it’s impossible. You can’t make them all happy. The only way to find real peace is to let them go.

So how do you do that? You start by understanding that all this inner conflict, all these different parts of you, are just the result of past experiences that you didn’t let go of. And now they’re stuck in there, creating all kinds of noise. 

But just as you created them, you can also uncreate them. 

You can let them go.

The process of letting go isn’t easy, but it’s simple. You don’t have to fix anything. You don’t have to solve your problems. You just have to stop holding onto them. You have to stop feeding them with your attention and your energy. You have to start noticing when these parts of you act up and choose not to get involved.

Let’s say you’re driving, and someone cuts you off. What’s your reaction? Maybe you get angry or frustrated. But instead of letting that anger take over, what if you just noticed it? What if you just observed it, without getting involved? What if you said to yourself, “Wow, look at that—I’m getting angry. Isn’t that interesting?” 

And then you let it go. 

You don’t suppress it. 

You don’t act on it. 

You just let it pass through you. 

Do this enough times, and that part of you that gets angry so easily will start to lose its grip. It will start to dissolve.

The same goes for all the other parts of you. The part of you that’s afraid of being left by your partner, uncomfortable being alone, the part of you that feels insecure, the part of you that longs for something more—all of these are just impressions, samskaras that you’ve held onto. 

And they can be let go of in the same way. You just have to be willing to observe them, without getting involved, and let them pass.

This is the path of true freedom. It’s not about trying to manage your life better. It’s about understanding why your life feels so unmanageable in the first place. It’s about going to the root of the problem and pulling it out, instead of just trimming the branches.

When you start to let go of these old impressions, something amazing happens. The energy that was tied up in all these different parts of you starts to flow freely again. You start to feel more whole, more centered, more at peace. And eventually, you reach a point where there’s no more inner conflict. You become one being again, with one purpose, one direction. And from that place of unity, everything becomes clear. 

Your relationships, your work, your life—they all fall into place because you’ve fallen into place.

This is the real teaching of spirituality. It’s not about finding the right way to live your life. 

It’s about finding your way back to yourself. It’s about becoming whole again, about healing the fragmentation inside you so that you can live with clarity and peace.

So I challenge you to start this journey today. 

Notice the different parts of yourself. 

Notice when they act up and when they start pulling you in different directions. And instead of trying to figure out which one to listen to, ask yourself why they’re there. 

Notice your aversion to this question. Why don’t you pause and actually do it?

Oh because you know it’s uncomfortable when you look at the answer, isn’t it…

Well guess what, when you store pain inside, it might be painful to bring it back up.

But when you look at it, relax in its presence, and feel it - you can finally move beyond it once and for all!

And then let these impressions go. Don’t suppress them. Don’t act on them. Just let them pass through you.

The more you do this, the more you’ll start to feel that flow of energy, that joy, that peace that’s always been there, just waiting for you to return to it. And when you do, you’ll find that all the conflict, all the confusion, just melts away. You’ll find that you’re no longer a committee of different voices, but one clear, unified being, at peace with yourself and the world.

With love and in truth,

Arlin

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