What it ACTUALLY looks & feels like to "Surrender"

Two years ago, I was making 7 figures. Living oceanfront in Palisades. Staying at $1k a night Hotels. Flying first everywhere. Eating out every night.

But yet I had this knot in my chest that wouldn't go away.

You know that feeling? Where on paper everything's working, but internally something's just... off?

I tried fixing it the way we all do: Make more money. Upgrade the house. Optimize the business. Build more status.

None of it touched it. Not even a little bit. If anything it made it worse.

Then I found out I moved next to an Ashram with ancient history next door to my apartment.

Complete accident. Turns out it's the Self-Realization Fellowship Lake Shrine—where Steve Jobs and The Beatles learned to meditate.

I started going every week. Multiple times per week. Learned real meditation (not the productivity-hack version). Started reading the Bible, going deep with somatic therapy, actually confronting the dark shit I'd been running from for years.

That knot in my chest finally started unwinding.

So I made a call most people thought was insane:

I shut down my million-dollar businesses. Burned my savings to produce an album. No safety net.

My girlfriend could've walked. Most women would have. She said she'd sleep under a bridge with me if it came to that. (That's when you know you found a real one.)

Then January 7th, 2025 happened.

I watched my entire neighborhood burn to the ground in the Palisades fires.

Out of THOUSANDS of homes, only three buildings survived:

1. My apartment

2. Erewhon

3. The Ashram

The universe is wild. And the story after the fires gets even crazier.

I just dropped a podcast about the whole journey.

→ Why meditation isn't a productivity hack—it's about humbling yourself before God
→ The actual dark energy I'd been carrying (and the moment it released)
→ How to know when you're chasing YOUR path vs. someone else's definition of success
→ Why 10x leaps are easier than 2x improvements (Michelangelo figured this out 500 years ago)
→ The real reason high-performers avoid stillness (we're terrified of what surfaces)
→ What it actually looks like to build with no plan B

This conversation goes into…

Demons. Repentance. Sleep paralysis. The difference between being a warrior in a garden vs. a gardener in a war. Why vulnerability is actual leadership. Why the flex culture is a trap. Why God speaks through fire and what it sounds like.

Watch it here →

If you're someone who:

• Has figured out how to make money, but now you're asking "what do I build that actually matters?"

• Feels like the most ambitious person in your friend group (and it's getting lonely)

• Knows there's more than the material game, but you're not trying to join a monastery

• Wants peers who challenge you, not cheerleaders who just validate you

• Is building something legacy-level, not just another cash-flowing business

Then this isn't just a podcast. It's a mirror.

And if it resonates?

October 2026. 73 spots. 25 luxury villas on a 200-foot cliff. Monks from the Self-Realization Fellowship. A week of pure creative flow with founders, artists, and builders who are done playing small.

10 tickets sold in first three weeks. First villa tier already claimed.

Not saying you need to commit to Uluwatu right now. But watch this pod. See if it hits!

If it does, you're probably supposed to be there among us…

Let me know if it lands, DM’s always open - instagram.com/arlin

—Arlin

P.S. — The meditation practice that changed everything:

Before you sit down to meditate: Shower. Stretch. Sun. Electrolytes.

When you sit: Breathe in, hold, squeeze every muscle, double exhale (3x to clear CO2).

Close your eyes. One prayer: "God, reveal yourself."

Wait for peace, harmony, love. That's it.

15 minutes tomorrow morning. Try it!